Through Our Grief

Most of our friends and family are aware that we lost our precious Hudson 2 weeks ago. After carrying him for 20 months and 6 days he was born and lived for approximately 2 hours. What a precious time we had with him. We wouldn't give up that time for anything. These days, the sorrow can seem somewhat overwhelming. Caroline's new question is, "Mommy cwying?" It's hard to reassure her when I'm balling like a baby, but somehow we're able to find a way to encourage her and let her know that it's okay. Isn't that just like God? We find ourselves in the pits and look to Him only to find reassurrance and strength we never thought we'd have. He's been so real to us through the love of family and friends. I'm not sure how anyone exists and survives without Him. I guess the reality is that none of us really exist or survive without Him. All I know is that there are times that all I can do is call on His name, even without saying anything else. Several people have asked Art and I what they could do to help us through this time and the truth is simple - pray. There is nothing we need other than that. God has been so gracious to us and we are blessed to have his precious gift of our family. I personally have come to realize more fully through this time that my husband is the love of my life! He is my miracle gift and I am so extremely grateful for a Godly husband who knows what it means to weather the storm with me. He's truly been Christ to me these past few weeks and I love him dearly.Caroline is growing like a weed. Sleeping in a "big giwl bed". When we visited a friend of ours in the hospital this week she said, "My brudder here?" and we were able to talk to her a little more about Hudson. It is so nice to know that she is grasping enough to understand that Hudson is her brother. Though he's in heaven with Jesus, he's still a part of our everyday lives.